It’s been about three weeks since my last post. And about three weeks from today I will be heading home for a long weekend! May 16th I fly back, mainly to see my Elon friends before they graduate and disperse across the country and beyond. It just so happens to fall on my birthday weekend!
The weeks leading up to that trip are quickly filling up with fun outings and different commitments. The weekend before I head home, Brent and I will be having a big three-day birthday celebration. His birthday is the day before mine, so of course we have to go all out!
Since the last blog post I’ve been to the beach a few times. We went to Malibu for a community day. It was very peaceful and beautiful. The other weekend we went to Dockweiler with a bunch of friends, where you can camp and have bonfires on the beach. And this past Saturday I went to Santa Monica. I’ve never been to a beach by myself before and wanted to try it out. I loved it! It’s about a 40-minute bus ride, so it’s easy to get there. I brought a book, my music, and a lunch and just took it easy. I love the beach so much. It will be hard being so much farther from it when I move to Greensboro. I’ve always said that one day I will live in a beach town…one day :)
Work has been going pretty well. There are lots of changes happening at the moment, and more to come. It’s exciting and nerve-wracking at the same time. It’s weird that I have less than four months there! And just out here in Hollywood altogether. I can feel myself checking out in certain ways. In other words, I keep thinking about how it’s the end of April and time is flying and I almost don’t want to try addressing conflict in the house, or I don’t want to put in all the effort during community hours. Basically, I feel like it’s taking extra effort for me to follow through with commitments I have this year. And of course that’s not fair to my housemates and the neighborhood kids, etc. I think that would be my #1 prayer request right now – that I can have the strength and motivation to do what I came here to do; to do what’s expected of me for the next four months; to not check out and focus too much on next year.
I think that’s a big reason I’m not feeling as mentally present: I know what I’ll be doing next year and it’s distracting me from what I’m doing at the present moment. I’ll admit it: I’m worrying about where I’ll live next year and who I’ll live with and how little time I’ll have between my DOOR year and starting classes and registering for those classes and wanting a dog and wanting my car back and making sure all the logistics of the move are covered and that all my ducks are in a row and that everything is perfect and that I can control it all.
Yup, those are the thoughts running through my head. A little ridiculous, I know. Thankfully I have a Heavenly Father who can remind me of my inability to actually control it all…no matter how badly I want to. I have to keep reminding myself of Matthew 6 and what Scripture says about worrying. This, also, is worth remembering:
Worrying is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do for a while, but in the end you’re in the same place.
Not Scripture, but arguably just as helpful :)
So please be praying that I stay present…mentally, emotionally, etc. Also, I have been having some lower abdominal pain lately. Please be praying that I get some answers soon! I’m going to the doctor this week. Fingers crossed!
Today it was a free day (because it’s Easter Monday) and John had gotten a few free tickets to a taping of America’s Got Talent. He, Laura, and I ended up going. Let me preface by saying I tend to not like tapings so much. The few that I’ve been to (and from what I hear of others) require you to be there for hours on end without being able to eat anything, bring water, or getting any type of compensation at all. You wait in long lines, get shuffled around and told to go here or do this, and most of what you see is “fluff”. You don’t get to see much of the show’s material; it’s lots of cameras being moved, logistics being worked out, some host guy trying to entertain you, blah blah blah.
On the other hand, you get to see some famous people and watch some cool behind-the-scenes stuff and be entertained (even if it’s only for a little bit). All for free. Soooo I try not to get too jaded.
Anyway, all that to say that the taping today was pretty awesome! It wasn’t as much fluff as usual, and most of the acts were really legit! All but two got through to the next round. And one of those two was pretty cool…just not cool enough. One act included an adorable pig that raised a flag, and “played” soccer and golf. I love pigs. It was awesome.
Also, yesterday was Easter. Saddleback Church’s new LA location launched yesterday and Rick Warren, the founder, was there to kick it off. My friend, Rebekah, and I went to check it out. I really like Rick Warren, but it’s definitely not the church for me. But I’m glad I got to experience it and see him. I haven’t gone to Reality LA in weeks! It’s simply too big for me. But I miss the amazing worship and sermons, so maybe I’ll check it out again soon. I’ve checked out Tribe, where Freddie goes. I liked it a lot. It’s just such a commitment. I have to leave at 4 p.m., I get there around 5:00, we eat and have worship and a Bible study/discussion, and leave at around 8:00. So it’s at least a 4-hour commitment. But if I can mentally prepare myself and make myself go, it’s so worth it :)
I think that’s it for now. Thanks for reading and praying. Stayed tuned for another post soon!
Love and peace,